One Little Change

A few weeks ago my co-worker Lily asked me to switch shifts with her so she could go see MIA.  I didn’t have any reason not to switch so I thought I would do the favor.  In turn I opened up a free 24 hours without work.  I decided to call up someone who I’ve been meaning to see and make plans.

I was glad to see Joe arrive Tuesday night to hang out with me until Wednesday afternoon.  I really felt comfortable with him around and was happy to be able to express myself freely.  We really communicated well and had a lot of interesting things to discuss all night.

The next day we made breakfast and eventually went for a walk in the Lincoln Woods.  I was so happy I had to let it out.  All day I was singing and climbing boulders.  (If you’re into bouldering and live in RI you should check it out)  Here are some pics of our day together.

The last two days have been one long breath of anticipation until we meet again.  Until then it’s Spanish and Choir Music.

Peace

“Close your eyes and I’ll kiss you and tomorrow I’ll miss you…” 

The End to a Very Long Week

I want to start by thanking all the people that have spent the past week with me. I really enjoyed my time spent with you all, but I’m glad it has come to an end for some time. This week reminded me of how lonely I can be and also how much I long for personal time. I’ve mentioned this paradigm a few times before in my blog, but this week really solidified things for me.

As I’ve said I need to be alone so I can write down all the music in my head. Before it was not easy. I felt scared: almost as if I wasn’t good enough. I felt like I had to prove something to consider myself accomplished. Now I find the opposite to be true. I feel that when I’m not working on my music I am lonely.

I spent the past week with some amazing people. Day and night I was too occupied to sit down at my keyboard and play. I did play a few times while Adam was here, but I felt that he was not the audience I was seeking. I really wanted to sit and write all of my thoughts down onto the score. I have been unable to for over 9 days now and it has been depressing. I realized today that what I seek can only be found when I am at peace with myself and to do that means I need to be playing more music. I’ve said it before but it’s something that I need to constantly remind myself of. It’s something I need to always be focused on, because otherwise I will slip into the cracks of my existence and lose the drive that keeps me afloat during the challenges.

Peace

Thanksgiving and Fairwell to Adam

Yesterday Adam and I went up to Cambridge MA to visit with friends for Thanksgiving. It was the most beautiful day. Thanks to Global Warming we all went for a nice walk to the Esplanade after the warm arrival welcoming. Here are some pics of our walk

After out walk we started the turkey and ate more snacks while discussing politics, foreign affairs, music, and many other interesting things. I thought the crowd was wonderful. I wish I could have stayed longer, but I didn’t want to be arriving at my grandparent’s house at one in the morning.

This morning my Grandmother greeted me with breakfast. I was glad to have gotten to see her before Adam and I left for Providence.

Adam’s trip was great. I am so happy I got to put him up for the week at my apartment. It’s nice to have friends who you can spend countless hours together and not get bored. I’m going to miss him until the next time we see each other. Now it’s time to say good-bye and go back to the daily grind of our lives.

Peace

Back to Work Again

Today I had to go into Pastiche after all the fun I’ve been having with Adam. It was a great day actually and I didn’t have to stay late like I had expected. Also to my surprise, Adam had prepared dinner for the two of us. It was a South American Harvest Stew. It was really delicious.

After dinner the two of us went on an adventure to the mall. We met up with a new friend of mine and some of his friends. We all eventually ended up at Pastiche after a bit of trouble at the exit booths.

Overall the day was great and I look forward to the next few days to come with my friend. I am especially excited about all the positive energy that is fueling me for a really good recording session as well as the drive to get more work done.

Peace

An Even More Amazing Day

Today was wonderful. I was excited to make breakfast for once. I never get many days with nothing to do first thing in the morning, so today was especially wonderful.

Of course I didn’t take pictures of breakfast, I had to wait until I got to the Lincoln Woods. Here are some pictures of the walk Adam and I took today.

We later spent our afternoon gazing at Brown’s David Winton Bell Gallery, but not until our topiary observation of the sapling sculpture.

After I talked freely about shit, we decided to shoot some. Now we are chillin.

Peace…

Adam’s in Town

An amazing person named Adam is in town. We met late last year during his short lived career with ACORN. We have seen each other only twice this year, and now I have an entire week to spend with him. He is by far one of the most important people in my life and probably always will be.

He arrived late last night just in time for us to miss our plans, but we at least had time to relax for a few before bed. Today we both got up bright an early for Sunday Mass. Later we invited my other dear friend Brandon over for lunch and ate Rice, Beans, Salad, and Brandon’s amazing pizza. After that the three of us went to Pastiche and walked it all off in the Lincoln Woods. Finally the three of us made our way to Bonnie’s for a small impromptu dinner party of friends and family. It has been a beautiful day and I have so much to be thankful for.

On top of it all Adam and I took two evenings to watch Michael Moore’s documentary SiCKO. I was unaware of the current health crisis in America. We are, as a public, not fighting for what we deserve. Why are we sitting back and letting the pharmaceutical companies run our lives into severe debt? Why are we fighting to live? It is my belief (and many others) that we need to start a revolution. It is time to stand up for us and make it possible for all people to be taken care of. I am appalled by the way the government is treating the American public. We deserve to have universal health care. We deserve to be taken care of and not be forced to die.

If you haven’t seen SiCKO, see it! Just do it! I know we’re all busy and it may not be as interesting as Desperate Housewives, Heroes, or the ESPN network, but it could save your life and many others. Make change.

Peace

When I Go (I’ll Watch Over You)

My Mourning of This Loss

you inspired this.
I assumed you’d thought of that too
Maybe you’re right
But my wrongs are you

If you could pray
why would you wish for more
you said to give what you give
but that’s I keep asking for

When it started to seem
around the corners I could see you smile
and in my heart living
for all the while

but never towards heaven
just towards the skys
if we only could dream
then we once could have loved

Solutions are hard to take
But it’s the problems
they lead us astray
into our own dillusions

Living now I look
towards heaven
I fly

This is your ode
to you
nothing more

A Very Long Chapter

One of the most difficult things about life is knowing when to end a chapter in it. It’s not easy for me to let go of the last 6 months, but it’s time for the new chapter to begin. I had an amazing ride with an amazing person who never really got what they really deserved. They probably think I’m full it shit, but I do love them dearly…

To start again is the first step and tonight was by far one of the best. I went to a string sextet performance by Concertante. They are a wonderful group that has an amazing sound. If I didn’t know any better I might think they were more than six. Their program was staggeringly emotional with Strauss, Dvorak, and Brahms. If you ever come upon one of their performances jump on the opportunity to go see it. This is not your typical chamber music. It is far more full and explosive.

Let Them Eat Bread

My wonderful friend Brandon and I made bread tonight. It was a joint effort that was full of endless uncertainty with a pleasant outcome…freshly baked bread. mmm…

Peace

P.s. sorry about the picture quality, I didn’t have my camera cable to transfer the picture. Thank Bluetooth for the pic.

Just A Thought

I think it is amazing how you can accomplish anything if you apply your thoughts enough.  Not only did I set out to create more music, I figured out a better way to produce, record, and organize it.  I felt flow of inspiration without any effort other than having the desire to make more music.  It’s kind of surprising.  I wonder how this can be applied to thoughts about changing the world?  Any Ideas?

Peace